Wednesday, January 25, 2017
... And I'll cry if I want to
After my initial meeting with my medical team, the resident said, "We need to wait until you are not so 'emotional' and are ready to talk."
I looked at her and calmly said, "I'm an emotional person. I cry when I watch romantic movies. I cry when I read some hallmark cards. I tear up at the memory of my parents and the birth of my children. What makes me happy brings me to tears. What makes me sad brings me to tears. What hurts me brings me to tears. Anything sentimental will make me puddle up. I have been seeing a doctor for 14 years every 4 to 6 weeks now, and rarely do I go through a session without crying."
"You don't ever get ready." I said. I continued, "Maybe there should be a different base line for me. After all, I'm the reason they make waterproof mascara."
I think this got lost in translation, because when I was finished she said, "Well be all that it may be, you are still too emotional."
Not to be rude, I did not say what I was thinking - Isn't this what you are here for? If I'm an emotional mess, then we need to start there. Or perhaps I should wait until you work on your bedside manner!